One Step Ahead of Fear

Rearrange – move into a more acceptable position or state. I don’t know about you, but I like to rearrange the furniture in my apartment every few months as it keeps things interesting and gives a fresh feel to the place where I spend all my days. This task is typically done all by myself and will generally take me a few days to complete, but I always feel refreshed and energized when I’m done. The same can be said about rearranging things in my life, my priorities and where I focus my energy.

Through every hardship or trial I’ve come up against in my life, whether big or small, I got in to the practice of processing through my feelings and rearranging priorities in my life to make space for the energy to focus on getting through those difficulties. This could be reducing the time I spend with certain people or certain activities that I do less in order to give my attention to what I need to work through and find the right balance in my life. It could be doing a social media cleanout or purging streaming outlets or other distractions from my life. It could also be walking away from people or things that are causing more pain or difficulties and leaving them out of my life all together.

Sometimes when we rearrange our lives others may not like it, they may tell us we’re doing the wrong thing or that we aren’t following the correct path for our lives, that the choices we are making aren’t the beneficial ones, they aren’t in the acceptable position. This could be that our rearranging isn’t beneficial to their plans or lives, but it could also be that us rearranging causes a necessary shift in their lives because we stepped out of their focus when they really weren’t expecting us to or didn’t want us to. Speaking for myself, I don’t ever want to put someone in a position forcing them to rearrange their life, but I have also held back from necessary changes and refocusing in my own life so as to not hurt anyone else, which in the end doesn’t do anyone any good. I find that consistent refocusing, rearranging keeps my mind, my heart and my soul healthy.

Recently, someone that I cared for very much chose to step out of focus forcing me to rearrange my priorities and my energy. At first I was really hurt by this and couldn’t understand the why behind the sudden shift, but as the dust settled and I could see more clearly I could see that this rearrangement was going to be good. What I didn’t know was that it would lead to not only what was more acceptable, but what was always meant to be. Sometimes rearranging creates space for the right things, the right people to enter into our lives, which can change the course of our lives to point to where we’re destined to be.